The alarm rings.
You try to shut it off. The alarm rings. You succeed in stopping it. You try to
wake up. “Another five minutes, please”. No good. You have to get up. Bathroom.
Get dressed. Breakfast (if you are lucky and have time). Transport. Crush to
get to work. Frustration with others. Work. Hassle, problems, stupid people.
Coffee. More work, more coffee. More work. Something to eat. More work, more
stupidity, more frustration. Finish. Transport. Crush of people. Frustration
with others. Home. Dead tired. Family. Problems. Walk the dog. Shout at wife…..
So goes the day
– Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. Even maybe Saturday. The same
rhythm, day after day, week after week. The path most easily followed. BUT, one day, the “WHY” creeps in and everything begins in
a weariness tinged with amazement. And it is the “begins” that is so important.
Weariness comes at the end of the acts of a mechanical life but at the same
time awakens consciousness.
Time carries us
onwards and forwards. We live on the future. “Tomorrow”, “later”, “when you’re
old enough to understand”, “when you have made your way in life”…. and so it
goes. A time comes when the individual notices he is 30; he can assert his
(comparative) youth. He is part way on the curve of time and recognises he has
to stay with it to the end. He belongs to time and at the same time he is
seized by a horror - he recognises his worst enemy – time.
We yearn for
“tomorrow”; it will be “better”, “different”…but it rarely is, and so round and
round and round and…
I am (semi)
retired; I do not have the rhythm I show above; I do not have expectations of
“better” or “different”. I do not suffer the mechanics of such a life, nor do I
recognise time as my enemy. In my case,
There is one
thing wrong with retirement:
You never get a
day off
Until next time
(and not at all weary),
Peripatetic
Scribe
Very, very good, P.S. You have mastered the art of putting into words the everyday "suffering" of the majority of people. Luckily, like you, I am not in that category, neither am I (yet) in your comment on retirement - which I think is excellent - this is a great way to remind the non-thinkers precisely what their life adds up to. Good for the kids, as well!
ReplyDeleteMark NZ
So true! You have managed to raise several extremely valid points yet again!
ReplyDeleteSomeone said "Carpe diem" long before our time and they were absolutely right. Nevertheless, sometimes it is easier said than done.
Thank you
Lucana
Mark, thank you. The sooner people understand what "life" should be, the happier they can be, in my opinion.
ReplyDeleteLucana, thank you. "Carpe diem" is tough, but if you wish to have a "life" then you make every effort to get out of the pit of routine and go for something better.
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